Guarded
Always clear headed
Don't drown anything out
Sober and conscious
Everything in account
The joy and the sorrow
The flood and the drought
All faced within clarity
In their fullest amount
I don't open up
I hardly confide
Prone to the act
To just hide it inside
Calm is the surface
A mirror that shines
While dark is the depths
And it's not for your eyes
So don't stir the waters
Don't try to make waves
For when peace becomes broken
It opens the graves
And the efforts of burial
I'd sure like to stave
Avoiding the hardship
And hiding the pain
Don't know if it's healthy
And really don't care
I choose my own path
Choose what I will bare
A conscious decision
I've weighed and compared
My business alone
That which I will not share
Ask me how I'm doing
And you'll get a reply
One I have recited
And approved in my mind
Though the truth may be hiding
You'll not see with your eyes
Because this smile's well practiced
And helps me to disguise
Deny introspection
To the observance of others
Hiding the scars
Of all the past lovers
Containing the rage
That would otherwise smother
Keeping silent the truths
That I don't long to utter
I'll manifest peace
Gain my composure
And if I like you
I may draw you closer
I may take my time
As I ease in exposure
Crafting my love
As a fluent composer
For even my passion
I feel need to restrain
Least I lose all control
And my secrets escape
Leaving the door open
To feel a new pain
Do I wrestle with love
To the risks of mistake